Leelah Alcorn

Joshua Alcorn
Alcorn in 2014
Born	Joshua Ryan Alcorn (1997-11-15)November 15, 1997 Kings Mills, Ohio, US
Died	December 28, 2014(2014-12-28) (aged 17) Lebanon, Ohio, US
Cause of death	Suicide by vehicular impact

Joshua Alcorn (November 15, 1997 – December 28, 2014) was an American transgender whose suicide attracted international attention. Alcorn had posted a suicide note to his Tumblr blog, writing about societal standards affecting transgender people and expressing hope that his death would create a dialogue about discrimination, abuse and lack of support for transgender people.

Alcorn was raised in a conservative Christian household in Ohio. At age 14, he came out as trans to his parents, Carla and Doug Alcorn, who refused to accept his gender identity. When he was 16, they denied his request to undergo transition treatment, instead sending his to Christian conversion therapy with the intention of convincing him to reject his gender identity and accept his gender as assigned at birth. After he revealed his attraction toward males to his classmates, his parents removed his from school and revoked his access to social media. In his suicide note, Alcorn cited loneliness and alienation as key reasons for his decision to end his life and blamed his parents for causing these feelings. he committed suicide by walking out in front of oncoming traffic on the Interstate 71 highway.

Alcorn arranged for his suicide note to be posted online several hours after his death, and it soon attracted international attention across mainstream and social media. LGBT rights activists called attention to the incident as evidence of the problems faced by transgender youth, while vigils were held in his memory in both the United States and United Kingdom. Petitions were formed calling for the establishment of "Leelah's Law", a ban on conversion therapy in the U.S. Alcorn's parents were blamed for their child's death by LGBT rights activist Dan Savage, and faced online harassment. They were also criticized for misgendering Leelah in comments to the media; they defended their actions with their Christian beliefs.

Life

Alcorn was born in November 1997, and given the name Joshua Ryan Alcorn. he eventually rejected this forename, and in his suicide note signed herself "(Leelah) Josh Alcorn". One of four children, he described herself as being raised in a strict Christian environment. The family attended the Northeast Church of Christ in Cincinnati, and had been featured in a profile of that church published in a 2011 article in The Christian Chronicle.

According to his suicide note, Alcorn had felt "like a girl trapped in a boy's body" since he was four, and came to identify as a transgender female from the age of fourteen, when he became aware of the term. According to his note, he immediately informed his mother, who reacted "extremely negatively" by claiming that it was only a phase and that God had made his a male, so he could never be a woman. he stated that this made his hate herself, and that he developed a form of depression. his mother sent his to Christian conversion therapists, but there "only got more Christians telling me that I was selfish and wrong and that I should look to God for help." Aged sixteen, he requested that he be allowed to undergo transition treatment, but was denied permission; "I felt hopeless, that I was just going to look like a man in drag for the rest of my life. On my 16th birthday, when I didn't receive consent from my parents to start transitioning, I cried myself to sleep."

"When I was 14, I learned what transgender meant and cried of happiness. After 10 years of confusion I finally understood who I was. I immediately told my mom, and he reacted extremely negatively, telling me that it was a phase, that I would never truly be a girl, that God doesn't make mistakes, that I am wrong. If you are reading this, parents, please don't tell this to your kids. Even if you are Christian or are against transgender people don't ever say that to someone, especially your kid. That won't do anything but make them hate them self. That's exactly what it did to me."

— Leelah Alcorn, 2014

Alcorn publicly revealed his attraction to males when he was sixteen, as he believed that identifying as a gay male at that point would be a stepping stone to coming out as transgender at a later date. According to a childhood friend, Alcorn received a positive reception from many at school, although his parents were appalled. In Alcorn's words, "They felt like I was attacking their image, and that I was an embarrassment to them. They wanted me to be their perfect little straight Christian boy, and that's obviously not what I wanted." They removed his from Kings High School, and enrolled his as an eleventh grader at an online school, Ohio Virtual Academy. According to Alcorn, his parents cut his off from the outside world for five months as they denied his access to social media and many forms of communication. he described this as a significant contributing factor towards his suicide. At the end of the school year, they returned his phone to his and allowed his to regain contact with his friends, although according to Alcorn, by this time his relationship with many of them had become strained and he continued to feel isolated.

Two months prior to his death, Alcorn sought out help on the social media website Reddit, asking users whether the treatment perpetrated by his parents was considered abuse. There, he revealed that while his parents never physically assaulted his, "they always talked to me in a very derogatory tone" and "would say things like 'You'll never be a real girl' or 'What're you going to do, fuck boys?' or 'God's going to send you straight to hell'. These all made me feel awful about myself, I was Christian at the time so I thought that God hated me and that I didn't deserve to be alive." Further, he explained, "I tried my absolute hardest to live up to their standards and be a straight male, but eventually I realized that I hated religion and my parents." On Reddit, Alcorn also disclosed that he was prescribed increasing dosages of the anti-depressant Prozac. In concluding his post, he wrote, "Please help me, I don't know what I should do and I can't take much more of this."

Death

Prior to his death on December 28, 2014, Alcorn had scheduled for his suicide note to be automatically posted on his Tumblr account at 5.30pm. In the note, he stated his intention to end his life, commenting:

I have decided I've had enough. I'm never going to transition successfully, even when I move out. I'm never going to be happy with the way I look or sound. I'm never going to have enough friends to satisfy me. I'm never going to have enough love to satisfy me. I'm never going to find a man who loves me. I'm never going to be happy. Either I live the rest of my life as a lonely man who wishes he were a woman or I live my life as a lonelier woman who hates herself. There's no winning. There's no way out. I'm sad enough already, I don't need my life to get any worse. People say "it gets better" but that isn't true in my case. It gets worse. Each day I get worse. That's the gist of it, that's why I feel like killing myself. Sorry if that's not a good enough reason for you, it's good enough for me.

he expressed his wish that all of his possessions and money be donated to a trans advocacy charity, and called for gender issues to be taught in schools. The note ended with the statement: "My death needs to mean something. My death needs to be counted in the number of transgender people who commit suicide this year. I want someone to look at that number and say "that's fucked up" and fix it. Fix society. Please." A second post appeared shortly after; titled "Sorry", it featured an apology to his close friends and siblings for the trauma that his suicide would put them through, but also contained a message to his parents: "Fuck you. You can't just control other people like that. That's messed up."

In the early morning of December 28, police informed news sources that he had been walking southbound on Interstate 71 near Union Township when he was struck by a semi-trailer just before 2:30 am near the South Lebanon exit. he died at the scene. It is believed that Alcorn walked three to four miles from his parents' house in nearby Kings Mills, Ohio, before being struck. The highway was closed for more than an hour after the incident. An investigation was launched by the Ohio State Highway Patrol, while Alcorn's body was transported to the Montgomery County coroner, where an autopsy was scheduled. The truck driver was uninjured in the incident and was not charged with any criminal offence by police.

Within 48 hours of the posting of his suicide note, it had attracted 82,272 views, and by the morning of December 31 it had been reposted on Tumblr 200,000 times. The Boston Globe described it as a "passionate post". The suicide note was later deleted after Alcorn's parents asked for it to be removed, and the blog was made inaccessible to the public.

According to the family minister, the Alcorn family decided to hold the funeral privately after receiving threats. Alcorn's body was reportedly cremated.

Reaction

Criticism of Alcorn's parents

On December 28 at 2:56 p.m., Alcorn's mother, Carla Wood Alcorn, posted a public message on the social media website Facebook, stating: "My sweet 16-year-old son, Joshua Ryan Alcorn, went home to Heaven this morning. He was out for an early morning walk and was hit by a truck. Thank you for the messages and kindness and concern you have sent our way. Please continue to keep us in your prayers." Carla Alcorn's post was subsequently deleted, and his Facebook account was made private. The Alcorn family publicly requested that they be given privacy to grieve in a statement issued by the Kings Local School District. In that statement, staff from Alcorn's former school, Kings High School, declared that "Joshua Alcorn was a sweet, talented, tender-hearted 17-year-old", adding that counselors would be made available to students affected by the incident. A moment of silence was held in Alcorn's memory before a Kings High basketball game on December 30.

Some of Alcorn's sympathizers publicly criticized the teen's mother, Carla Alcorn, for misgendering his daughter in the Facebook post announcing Leelah's death. Some individuals — termed "the Internet's self-appointed vigilantes" in The Washington Post — subsequently doxed and harassed Carla via his Facebook account "in revenge" for Leelah's death. On Twitter, American gay rights activist Dan Savage argued that Alcorn's parents should be prosecuted for their role in bringing about their daughter's death, commenting that through their actions they "threw his in front of that truck". He cited the successful prosecution of Dharun Ravi following the suicide of Tyler Clementi as a legal precedent for such an action. He added that legal action should also be brought against the conversion therapists who had counselled Leelah, and suggested that the Alcorns should lose custody of their other children.

Carla Alcorn responded to such criticism in an interview with CNN, stating "we loved him unconditionally. We loved him no matter what. I loved my son. People need to know that I loved him. He was a good kid, a good boy." Although acknowledging that Leelah had requested transition surgery, Carla stated that he had never heard his child use the name "Leelah", before reiterating his refusal to accept his child's transgender status, adding "We don't support that, religiously." he expressed concern that users of social media thought his to be a "horrible person", but defended his actions in dealing with his child, stating that he had banned Leelah's internet access to prevent his accessing "inappropriate" things. In an email to Cincinnati-based channel WCPO-TV, Leelah's father Doug Alcorn wrote, "We love our son, Joshua, very much and are devastated by his death. We have no desire to enter into a political storm or debate with people who did not know him. We wish to grieve in private. We harbor no ill will towards anyone... I simply do not wish our words to be used against us."

Writing for Salon, Mary Elizabeth Williams commented that "it would be cruel and inaccurate to suggest that Carla Alcorn did not love his child", but added that Carla's statement that he "loved him unconditionally" revealed "a tragic lack of understanding of the word 'unconditionally,' even in death." People magazine quoted Johanna Olson, Medical Director for the Center of Trans Youth Health and Development at Children's Hospital Los Angeles, as stating that "Did Leelah's parents love his? Yes, I'm sure they did. Did they support his? No, they didn't. And that's a tragedy." Mara Keisling, the Executive Director of the National Center for Transgender Equality, was quoted in The Independent as stating that the blaming of Alcorn's parents was unhelpful, adding, "Despite the great cultural and policy advances transgender people have made, there is still a lot of disrespect, discrimination and violence aimed at us. And being a child or a teenager of any kind today is very difficult."

Tributes, vigils, and activism

A memorial placed against a wall following the London vigil.

The day after Alcorn's suicide note was published online, Chris Seelbach, the first openly gay councilman on Cincinnati City Council, shared it as part of a Facebook message in which he stated that his death showed how hard it was to be transgender in the U.S. His post was shared over 4,700 times and raised increased public awareness of the incident. By December 30, Alcorn's death had attracted worldwide attention. News outlets across the world had picked up the story, and the hashtag #LeelahAlcorn had topped Twitter. According to British newspaper The Independent, the incident "triggered widespread anguish and raised a debate about the rights of transgender people", while the U.S.-based Boston Globe stated that it "served as a flashpoint for transgender progress in 2014".

On January 1, 2015, the Cincinnati-based LGBT rights group Support Marriage Equality Ohio hosted a vigil for Alcorn outside Kings High School. A candlelight vigil in Goodale Park, Columbus was held on January 2 by a group called Stand Up 4 Leelah. A further vigil was organized by both The Diverse City Youth Chorus in partnership with the Cincinnati chapter of the Gay, Lesbian & Straight Education Network at the Clifton Cultural Arts Center for January 10. The vigil location at the Clifton Cultural Arts Center was moved to the Woodward Theater, to make way for a larger setting. The venue was attended by nearly 600 supporters.

A January 3 vigil was scheduled for Trafalgar Square in London; an organizer was quoted as saying that "[Alcorn's] death was a political death. When a member of our community is brutalised at the hands of oppression we must all fight back". Those who spoke at the event included politician Sarah Brown and novelist and poet Roz Kaveney. Marches were carried out in honor of Alcorn in both Northwest, Washington, D.C. and Queen Street, Auckland on January 10. The same day, a candlelight vigil was held in New York City's Columbus Circle. A memorial protest against conversion therapy and in memory of Alcorn took place in Lynchburg, Virginia on January 24, 2015.

Among the transgender celebrities who publicly responded to the incident were Janet Mock, Andreja Pejić, and Laverne Cox, while the musician Ray Toro released a song, "For The Lost And Brave", in dedication to Alcorn. Jill Soloway, the writer of television show Transparent, dedicated his Golden Globe for Best Television Series to Alcorn.

Carolyn Washburn, editor of the Ohio newspaper The Cincinnati Enquirer, stated that the incident "raises important issues we hope will prompt conversations in families throughout our region." Washburn had also received letters that derided the newspaper's use of Alcorn's chosen name in covering his death. When contacted by The Cincinnati Enquirer, Shane Morgan, the founder and chair of trans advocate group TransOhio, stated that while 2014 witnessed gains for the trans rights movement, Alcorn's death illustrated how "trans people are still being victimized and still being disrespected", highlighting the high rate of trans people who had been murdered that year. Since the incident, TransOhio received letters from parents of trans children describing how Leelah's death had affected them. Morgan stated that while he understood the anger directed toward Leelah's parents, "there's no excuse for threats to the family."

Allison Woolbert, executive director of the Transgender Human Rights Institute, informed The Independent that Leelah's case was "not unique"; the newspaper highlighted research from the US Centers for Disease Control and Prevention indicating that LGBT youth are about twice as likely to attempt suicide than heterosexual, cisgender teenagers. Newsweek similarly placed Alcorn's suicide within its wider context of transphobic discrimination, highlighting that the Youth Suicide Prevention Program reports that over 50% of transgender youths attempt suicide before the age of 20, and that the National Coalition of Anti-Violence Programs recently published a report indicating that 72% of LGBT homicide victims in 2013 were transgender women.

Leelah's Law

A Facebook group called "Justice for Leelah Alcorn" was established, while a petition calling for "Leelah's Law", a ban on conversion therapy, was created by the Transgender Human Rights Institute to raise awareness of the psychologically harmful effects of such practices; by January 24 it had 330,009 signatures, and was named the fastest growing change.org petition of 2014. A second appeal demanding the enactment of "Leelah's Law" was posted to the We the People section of WhiteHouse.gov on January 3, 2015 which garnered more than 100,000 signatures as of January 30. Under the Twitter hashtag #RealLiveTransAdult, many trans people posted encouraging tweets for their younger counterparts, while other hashtags, such as #ProtectTransKids, and the term "Rest in Power", also circulated on Twitter. A change.org petition was set up calling for Leelah's chosen name to be included on his gravestone, which gained over 80,000 signatures. On January 6, Adam Hoover of Marriage Equality Ohio remarked that, since the request of having Alcorn's chosen name on his gravestone seemed "like a slim possibility", they would be raising money for a permanent memorial arranged as a bench, tree and commemorative plaque.

See also

• List of LGBT-related suicides
• List of people from Ohio
• List of transgender people

External links

• Archive of Alcorn's Tumblr page